Fine, I’ll admit I’ve become increasingly short tempered. I’m angry easily, I get extremely frustrated within seconds. I’ve got a lot on my plate, and whoever you are who thinks otherwise, I’ll tell you that I know more about my issues and circumstances than your assumptions ever will. I’m sorry if I can’t afford to whisk myself away when I want to. Believe me, I want to. So don’t react with judgement if my unchosen, negative presence brings you down with its existence. If you claim to love me, then love as a whole. Don’t brand being human against me like sin.
its quite, quite scary how real dreams get, the feelings especially. One of the most realistic, crazy dreams I’ve had in a long while, but I guess it could be counted as one of the best. It was truly like a movie, but weird weird weird. When I woke up it was like this huggggge jolt back to reality realizing all that happened was not real. Also weird/cool, was how the entire dream was a mix of everything that happened/was talked about yesterday. Waaaaaah really so weird.
#elmwood #love #alternate #kim possible #intense #intense #intense moments
Look at that! I took all his knick knacks, arranged it perfectly inside the box, double labelled it on top and on the side so he knows whats in it without having to take it out. I’m way too proud of this. Plus it has a list of all its contents with their proper names on the side label too!!!! AND he fully fully appreciates it, mhmm youre perfect I love you.
it was nice seeing his family, I got invited to dinner eheheeee. :)
+ buy a disposable film camera, and just wander through shots till it finishes. + cook everything I’ve wanted to cook, then pack it up for a picnic in the living room. A mattress, lots of blankets, fun conversation and a light movie in the background.
also one day, I will buy this down winter jacket from Uniqlo. Its big, incredibly expensive, and unnecessary. But I do love it, its so soft! Instead of secretly putting it on at every outlet I pass, I’d get to wear it every every night.
I always thought the physical part of a relationship was a human want, since the media tells us so. Really though, it gives the comfort, the assurance words fall short on. Reading letters is always beautiful. but really all I want now is a warm, full hug.
Mother laughing at whatsapp conversations where Lena makes fun of me Laughing at Lena’s dramatic, hilarious answers to serious questions Watching her soft toys with big eyes dance and sing and cough to ‘dream on’ ‘billionaire’ & ‘dirty little secret’ Comparing pillows Rocking out to ‘sweet child of mine’ ‘forget you’ ‘the only exception’ have Ari coming in flapping her wallet at me then plopped on the bed Mum with a curler in her fringe and a nail file in her hand Mum waving her curler and nail file in time to the music Dad comes in and raises eyebrows at Lena’s playing Mum puts her arm around Dad and makes him sway too He sways funny with his leg rising off the floor so Mum does it too and laughs Uh oh late for lunch Keane walking around with penny the penguin in one arm and kola in the other Keane chases Lena for her new IC left for lunch!
I was sleeping on the floor with Lyndal, someone I thought was Martyn but wasn’t, and a younger Rupert Grint. We had this love/hate thing going on and I wanted to sleep next to him but dared not ask, so Lyndal did it for me and I was embarrassed. But then Deon appeared and got mad and I reassured him I loved him, just that sleeping next to Rupert Grint was cool.
But now to think of it I was still 19 and Rupert seemed about twelve. Darn.
I wrote an ‘article’ for my own fyp zine yesterday, and I’m quite happy with it. However, I’m on the fence whether or not to post it here. Although I do like it, it is quite personal and sounds more dramatic than most people believe necessary. But I stand by my opinion, really meant them.