In a pickle

Last night I found out someone finished the potato chips and I REALLY WANTED the potato chips and...

Wed, 22 May 2013 06:42:36 -0400

Last night I found out someone finished the potato chips and I REALLY WANTED the potato chips and I’m so sad and had to watch masterchef which made everything worse. I WANT THE CHIPS

a dual language of sound and speech graces my listening, and in...

Mon, 20 May 2013 13:16:00 -0400

a dual language of sound and speech graces my listening, and in a wave I stroll and drink the unscripted settings of my home country.

cute people, good food

Sun, 19 May 2013 15:06:00 -0400

cute people, good food

MAY

Sun, 19 May 2013 13:24:36 -0400

my coming week is filled with plans to meet my best friends. It’s interesting that its not a big group, but individuals from different times and places that we grew to love. (one another) It’s been a while since I’ve had plans in advance and now especially with those I love and miss so much I’m just so excited!

Shot an engagement party a week ago, uniting South Indian and...

Sat, 18 May 2013 13:48:00 -0400

Shot an engagement party a week ago, uniting South Indian and North Indian families. The joy in the room was amazing! Truly a celebration, and it was felt all around. Friends, families, different kinds of people coming together to rejoice something whole and beautiful.
I was technically a stranger doing a job, but treated like a guest welcomed into their home. It was wonderful. I loved it.
:))))))))

If I could have anything for my 21st birthday, it would be a pool. I’m not spoilt or usually...

Fri, 17 May 2013 05:58:00 -0400

If I could have anything for my 21st birthday, it would be a pool. I’m not spoilt or usually that extravagant, most of the time when my parents ask me what I want I can never think of anything, I mean my 17th birthday dinner was at a hawker center by choice. (yummmmm Maxwell porridge) I do want a handheld vaccum cleaner but they’ll laugh at me so no.

A pool of cool water is where I feel at ease. I dance beneath the surface with my legs like a ballerina on my toes. I did it so much when I was younger then I got cramps and it hurt really bad, I was more cautious afterwards. But swimming was always always a treat and I loved it, I’d be happy, and refreshed and comforted, and just really happy. After we swam we would all be so hungry and everything would taste heavenly.

When I’m sad, or lonely, my gut tells me to take comfort in a body of water.

If I could ask for anything, I’d ask for a pool.

long awaited call from Thailand ‘When people say don’t care about what people think, that is the...

Sun, 12 May 2013 13:15:00 -0400

long awaited call from Thailand

‘When people say don’t care about what people think, that is the biggest lie in the world. ‘

‘okay you care, but-‘

dial tone, card money ran out.

I love Weddings, and I love babies. I complain loudly about...

Fri, 10 May 2013 13:52:00 -0400

I love Weddings, and I love babies. I complain loudly about having a lack of these in my life and everyone goes, you’re next!

I am next. I cannot wait gaaaaah I’m so impatient for the good things! I can’t wait for my wedding and I cannot wait to hold my child. I’m the dorky girl who tears at vows and loving eye talk.

"Carpe diem, how annoying is carpe diem? How are you supposed to plan a life, a career, a family, if..."

Fri, 10 May 2013 12:19:23 -0400

“Carpe diem, how annoying is carpe diem? How are you supposed to plan a life, a career, a family, if you’re always carpe-ing the diem?”

- Meredith Grey (via pantaareii)

I wish one day I can play a character like the badass adorable...

Fri, 10 May 2013 12:12:00 -0400

I wish one day I can play a character like the badass adorable Cristina Yang.
Greys has taken over my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m only half complaining.

Melbourne was nice.

Fri, 10 May 2013 05:09:21 -0400

Melbourne was nice.

GREY'S FREAKING ANATOMY

Fri, 10 May 2013 04:03:00 -0400

I dous me in fiction and it reeks of petrol, overpowering my breathing with sparks everywhere. Where is the one that pulls me out of these stories more interesting than mine!!!!!!!!!! STUPID ARMY STOLE MY BOYFRIEND

I met my brand new, newborn baby cousin (once removed)...

Thu, 09 May 2013 14:15:00 -0400

I met my brand new, newborn baby cousin (once removed) today.

She is so tiny, so so tiny. So precious, amazing, and perfect. I’m good with her, I’m good with babies, that is one thing I hold pride on because I love them that much. This adorable little girl Emma was there too, talkative and loving, kissing and giving hugs so freely.
I love brand new Kayla. All there is to love, her tiny eyes, tiny fingers, tiny toes, tiny face and her big, big eyes. She is barely anything size wise but I love her like she is the biggest being the world.

Of course my heart and uterus starting exploding emotional longings after that and I bombarded the topic to my also baby-crazy boyfriend. He’s so sweet, and I have evidence that he has to wait on me after I give birth in all its unbelievable pain and hormones. I am going to be a big bitch amongst the constructions and cutting and my scarily low threshold for pain will make sure of that.

BUT I CAN’T WAIT!!!!!

thump

Thu, 09 May 2013 13:10:00 -0400

The physical darkness the skies become
yanks- cruelly, my own shadows.
Through the gates of metal that means to protect,
it instead
stains

stains
the rapidly growing rust stains of bad
decisions
the unmade
the wish to be
unknown
if ever, if we could.

If we were to dream something realistic, what is to dream at all?

unmade & undecided

Thu, 09 May 2013 12:48:48 -0400

unmade & undecided

Worry

Thu, 09 May 2013 04:23:00 -0400

I am blemished.

He knows, and like a snake he slithers in my bed.
like a serpent
A known evil, he goes where I am comfortable
and brushes his forked tongue against my cheek.
I turn
and my heart, where my emotions are created he makes a home
and I.
sink
too slow to feel the depth

too deep for my lacking height
But I reach anyway.

Its diffifcult.

I can’t stop dreaming. One day soon, it’s going to kill me.

Thu, 09 May 2013 01:45:58 -0400

I can’t stop dreaming. One day soon, it’s going to kill me.

I think I’m finally onto a style that I like. Need to dig out my...

Wed, 08 May 2013 13:19:26 -0400

I think I’m finally onto a style that I like. Need to dig out my pencil set from five years ago, pen feels and looks too harsh. One day I will be cool…

What I will never understand, is why many child stars from Disney (or whichever franchise catered to...

Wed, 08 May 2013 12:23:31 -0400

What I will never understand, is why many child stars from Disney (or whichever franchise catered to kids) eventually turn to exposing themselves just to prove that they’ve grown up. We know you have, its what happens to all of us. The increased height, the developing body parts, the increase in your vocabulary, its pretty obvious.

No need to show us your bigger boobies (hi Joanie its your favourite word) in all its glory or scream your lungs hoarse at us about your newly post-puberty self in a tuneless, bass-filled song. WE KNOW.

What would be interesting is to see how you’re dealing with these changes, physical and emotional. Fan or celebrity, the transition is inevitable. That is an opportunity to relate at us groupies, target our shared experience. It would show a lot more than ‘hey look, I’ve grown big body parts too!’

Pull

Tue, 07 May 2013 14:03:00 -0400

Past dreams prod close, in a proud strut on the fence
between then and the now, a cruel play, a sneer.
They say be a child, and a child I am
I’m the beginning, in ignorance though feigned but still true.

Bliss links hope to stride,
curiosity calls an excited step forward. But-
reason is pulling, with kisses of longing
Caution dressed in care leads in a waltz to the known.
Familiar,
but not needed.